I often find myself writing about the dark side of being BSW. But its not always so bad. I have some humorous moments too. And I realized I haven’t shared many of them, and that’s not a fair perspective. So here goes...
Recently I was in my doctors office for a follow up appt about an episode that hit me a few days before. I have no doubt that trigger would’ve made things really bad for me, but since I had finally gained some sense of self-awareness and a medical team with compassion and sensibility, I was able to nip the episode in the bud. Thank goodness for that!!!!
Anyways, we were discussing my medication status and costs based on my Blue Cross insurance plan (for entrepreneurs/escorts) I had for my drug plan coverage. I bluntly said I had the mediocre drug plan just to cover the basics and emergencies. He laughed and said that was quite an accurate name for their plan actually. My doc has a very endearing quality of bluntness that always feels appropriate. Quite a talent.
He asked if I needed any more clonazepam, and I responded that I was OK for the week because I was just cutting the higher dosage pills in half to save money. I had the ‘mediocre drug plan’ and money wasn’t growing on any trees that I knew of. Again he laughed and said OK. However, he made me promise to let him know if I did find any trees that appeared to me to be growing money. I like his sanity jokes. They’re very appropriate. I assured him I would.
The next day I was driving down the road and I spotted what I swore appeared to be a money tree. Seriously, a goddamn money tree. Like right out of yesterdays conversation in the doctors office. Fuck me. Suddenly I was questioning my sanity. I thought I had things under control again. I pulled the car over, cut the engine and walked back down the roadside until I came across ‘the money tree’ I saw. To be sure I wasn’t imagining the whole thing I took this picture:
I thought it was pretty funny. Who’s crazy now?
